Well, I guess like everything currently in my life, I'm going to try something different here to see if it can't help me to get to my goal in the end. I can't say if I will stay with this, as I'm not usually very good about keeping journals, however I thought that I'd give it a try since this year will be unlike any I've ever experienced before. The true goal of this blog... to see if it will help my mental training for next year's Ironman WI, and hey, if anyone wants to join me in this journey, I love feedback and motivation from others... so feel free. Secondary, I thought that maybe writing stuff down will help me get my life on track cause it's way too far off the path right now. I know I could have written this all down in a little black journal and shoved it under my pillow, but I've tried things like that before and it's never worked, so I thought maybe by putting myself out there just a little further, I would actually get somewhere. I do hope to possibly pick up some friends along the way... but if nothing else I will have accomplished something else that I've never done before by keeping this blog. As I said, it's going to be a long year, so if anyone does read this and ever wants to add anything to the experience, please do so (here's an email address: rreinhart@triathlete.com)! Here we go!
So today is what... the 16th of October, 2003- at age 23 with less than a 1/2 a month until I'm 24 I am in a situation I never really imagined I be in. The job market is incredibly difficult for finding work in graphic design (well at least in this area of WI - which I am kind of limited too since I have no money to my name whatsoever- this is no joke by the way :) and I'm pretty lonely. I have great friends- but having been in college, I was used to seeing them everyday and now that we've dispersed from our apartment, it's been different and rather hard to adjust too. I have met some great people... people that I would call friends, but not necessarily feel comfortable calling to just hang out. I have made one great friend that I owe a lot too. He's a great person and talented beyond words. I guess I'd really have to give the credit to him for getting me this far. I guess to sum things up- life is harder than I'd like it to be right now but I really have high hopes to improve it within this next year. I'd love to find a job, even better, one that I like (aside from my one at the health club), I'd love to figure out this whole relationship thing... I seem to have issues with that- and even more with hurting people, or myself, and finally (or at least for now...) I'd love to become strong enough to make it through what will be the biggest accomplishment of my life to date... the ironman.
wow- so we know I'm good at blabbing on... maybe I should go accomplish something for the day. I'm waiting on this job to see if I at least get an interview for it. I worked there for about 4 1/2 months as a LTE and was told I did an great job while I was there, but then had to stop working and actually apply for the job opening and since then, I haven't had a great feeling about it. It's tough because I know that I could do a great job there, but fact of the matter is that I'm green- only out of college for a year and right now that puts you in a very tough position to get a job. Apparently, even if you were just working there doing the job of your boss. Oh well... we'll see I guess. Fingers are crossed. Until then, I guess Illl just keep focusing on making the best of things and working out cause that seems to truly be where my passion lies.
Full night tonight... kickboxing class, Kickball finals (our team is undefeated so far!!), volleyball game and work bowling party... should be fun. We'll see how the scores come out!
With that, I'm out...
