Hi there... so it's been awhile (gee, surprise!) but it says I was in here on the 5th of Feb which means I should get a gold star for blogging twice in the same month!! Yea for me... little steps :)
So, what's new? Sorry about the short rather abrupt end to the first blog... it lost half of it and I got annoyed so I just bailed. I really don't even think I'm going to finish on it... I'll just start from here. Anyway... on the eve of heading to Hayward to ski the korte (Mark is much tougher than I and plans on the Birkie) we get an email saying that the temps were 52 with sun and rain yesterday and at this point the race is not looking good to icy and unsafe conditions. Now... I can't say I'm super upset because although I like xcountry skiing, there are a TON of people that do this race and it gets scary sometimes...and I'm already terrified of downhills (which there are a lot of!!! steep curving scary ones!) but I do feel bad for Mark, and all the people that have trained so hard through our brutally cold winter to prepare for it. Maybe it will snow in time... it's coming, but it looks like it will be 24 hours late. I'll keep you posted on the turn out.
Otherwise, life has been moving along like normal... have been consistently indoor cycling during lunch while indulging in past episodes of Grey's Anatomy with my coworker. Makes the hour go by so much quicker! I must also admit that I am addicted to the show. Sad but true... but everyone has to have a vice right? I'm not allowed to have any pertaining to food so I'll let myself have Grey's... seriously... so great.
Puppy is doing great. she's adorable and she snorts and smiles and makes you happy... she makes EVERYONE happy - anyone that meets her and that is exactly what I wanted in a dog. Hopefully the weather will get nice soon enough so we can start teaching her how to go on walks again. It is pretty apparent that she as forgotten! But still... adorable!
So kind of random... I found out through a website that my ex (whom I dated ages ago, but for 5 very impressionable years) is engaged. It's a weird feeling... one where I realize that I am happy for him and that I don't really care since we haven't talked more than 5 times since we broke up, but still incredibly hard and for some reason it hurts my heart. That's normal right? I've always been the tender hearted person - but I think it's to a fault because everything seems to get me and always much deeper than I would like or expect it to. Anyway, there's a little window into who I am... But like I said, I'm really happy for him. Just don't know how to feel. Thought that blogging it out would make me feel better. As of right now, it doesn't seem to be helping but maybe it will... maybe i'm still holding something in but i'm not sure if everything's ready to come out yet. I do wish we were better friends (my ex and I) - we were good together and I imagine that we could have been good friends as well. So it goes though. But enough with the downward energy. I'm happy for him.
I do realize though, that is really what I needed to talk about today so now that it's out - I really don't have anything else to write. If anyone is still reading this, thank you - and if anyone picks up on it, welcome! Always love notes and comments so feel free to jot one down for me! I hope everyone is well.
Smiles,
